Khloe Kardashian on painful moment Lamar Odom burned her personal journals in her presence

Throughout an episode of her Khloé in Surprise Land podcast that was launched on Wednesday, Khloe Kardashian revealed why she now not journals, stating that it stems from an incident involving her ex-husband, Lamar Odom. 

Per PEOPLE, Kardashian, 41, acknowledged that she beforehand had dozens of journals relationship again to a number of years of her life, however Odom, 46, burned them. 

The truth star acknowledged that on the time Odom discovered her journals, he was “extremely paranoid” as he was “going via it” and “having a tricky time.”

Kardashian mentioned her then-husband “was studying them and simply was satisfied that I used to be taking notes and sending them to the federal government or one thing loopy,” including that “he threw all of them into a fireplace in entrance of me.”

“I keep in mind sobbing,” she recalled. “It was years of my life in these journals, they usually meant a lot to me.”

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Kardashian acknowledged that she now not journals due to that have. She mentioned that feeling was “taken away in a f—ing blink, and what was the purpose?”

“I do hate that I don’t do it anymore, however I additionally assume there’s a chunk of me that doesn’t need to ever danger that that might occur once more,” she admitted. “It’s extra — I’m not gonna say traumatic — however I simply don’t wanna open that up once more.”

Kardashian and Lamar tied the knot in 2009 after relationship for only a month. She in the end filed for divorce in 2016 after they separated in 2013. Regardless of their separation on the time, Kardashian was by the previous Los Angeles Lakers star’s aspect when he was recovering from a virtually deadly drug overdose in 2015.

“Lamar was and is certainly somebody that I felt was the love of my life,” she mentioned in a February episode of her Hulu present, per US Weekly. “I received married once I was 24 and though him and I received married 30 days to the day we met, I cherished him with all of my coronary heart and soul. I took my vows very critically and I used to be married for about seven years. However there have been greater issues that weren’t fixable in that marriage. So the final time I noticed him was in 2016.”

Odom, on the present, additionally confirmed regret over his actions and apologized to his ex-wife. “I put you thru loads,” he mentioned. “I f***** up with you. I like you for attempting your hardest with me. That love won’t ever go away, I do know it received’t.”

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